I didn't get my fullness of years
Til you left me, here...in a pool of grief and tears
Why did you leave?
Did your wings mature while I was getting food
My nest is empty, ugly, pointless
Nude
No one wants to see me naked
Vulnerability makes me look sick, pale
Self-pity is off putting
Like a board with a rusty nail
Always cautious of each step
I gather myself today, and move
Not back, forward, always forward
Northward, where all rivers flow
Grief has removed the babbling brook
From the time my loss took
Without one reason, my soul shook you out of my "know."
I can't "know" you anymore
Your presence lined my waters with hope
I feel out of sorts, no boundaries to guide my love
It just is
It's there...LOVE
But I have lost the will to "know."
Written by Trudy Schrader on 11-10-2017
Note: Grief is so difficult. It just takes to much energy to fight the embrace of loss. Day after day, LOVE remains, but I don't want to embrace this loss. It's easier to just glance at it ever once in a while, and cry.
