HEART TALK

Running about with a mission
It's so easy to lose your vision
People needing hope and life
Right in the middle of looming strife

Up down, all around, like pools of water
Reminding myself, I am Daddy God's daughter
LOVE is trying to flow in unbelief
But without faith, even GOD can NOT bring relief

Through a door, and I am met by men
Come, we need you to come with us, once again
Expectations at the floor of need
And me completely depleted of divine seed

I gave consent with submission to flow
Whoever I will meet...........I already KNOW
His face, falling completely in, to grace
Taking it all in, in the sacred, holy place

Each step, purposeful, beautiful, divine
He spoke, and with every word, HE is mine
I'm reminded, He's married, with children
Who am I, I have nothing in me, to give HIM

How can HE encourage me, while LOVING others
Giving expensive shoes to a single, struggling, mother
He touched so many, and with such impact
Moment after moment, arriving, and HE, always exact

But....then.....

He sat on a couch, facing me, knees touching
HE dove into to me, silencing, crushing
.........fear, doubt, and unbelief

Heart to heart we melded into LOVE
HE alone, is who and what I am made of
Words need not be spoken when TRUTH reigns
Up and gone, but HE remains

.........in my assured, settled, abounding in joy
..............HEART

Written by Trudy Schrader on 03/27/2020

OUTSOURCED

In the beginning
When humanity began to walk
The Creator would come down
Just to talk
...with man

Time passed
And possibilities began to arise
Everything permissible
Except that one, where man dies
...alone

Well, it happened
And really, not that bad, it seemed
Man lived and had children
Without a Creator who intervened
...incessantly

Murder is learned
And it surfaced with brothers
Toil, pain and suffering
For shamed mothers
...of sons

The Flood came
A new beginning for a clean slate
But if experience is a teacher
Habit had an open gate
...to the heart

Man decided to be god
Unity helped them build a tower
A pyramid with an altar atop
So that man could have power
....to destroy

The more man roamed
And saw the difference of choice
Submission seemed ignorant
When the silence vibrated with voice
...to hold

Love happens freely
There shouldn't be one "right" way
Sodom and Gomorrah erupted
With the insanity of making HOLY ANGELS man's prey
...for sex 

We want a king! They cried
And The Creator provided, yet again
No one liked the sacrificial system
And HIS obsession with sin
...the SIN
...................of WOman

.............................................He should be over it by now.

Even when THAT king failed
Many others followed, leadership sealed
GOD can NOT be our king
Because that position is currently filled
...with man

Religion and Politics gathered
In a governing system, like a pyramid on dry land
Man grew comfortable in position and power
That made them oblivious to the shifting sand
....of natural disaster

So solid is the foundation
In this time of civilized man
That those who claim HIS name
Have no NEED to reach for HIS hand
...anymore

Six long days have passed
And man has finally arrived at the top
Humanity understands LOVE conquers fear
And no weapon can ever stop
...a CHILD OF GOD

GOD RESISTS

......................THE PROUD

..........................................even if they are CHILDREN OF GOD


Written by Trudy Schrader on 03/17/2020

DRILLING FOR OIL

He sat at a desk
Where he had worked for twenty years
As he gathered the evidence collected
He fought back swelling tears

She sat in the home
Where she learned to trust and run
Love had sheltered her and her boys
This couldn't be how LOVE is done

....critical loss

He lugged his suitcase
Down the lonely road of the city
He had three degrees to his name
And a cardboard sign trying to buy pity

She stood under the street light
Waiting for her next trick to drive up
Needed money for living in drugs
Why could she never get enough

....despair

He walked into the restaurant
Fighting back the urge to demand "clean"
Though he tried to ask for a favor
He knew his words were controlling and so mean

She sat in the house of worship
Fearing that an assailant would enter
How could she protect her young
And keep "god" front and center

.....drilling for oil

They gather at promises
Saying they believe the earth holds gold
But as water separates from oil
Terror fills the believer's mold

The black ooze comes to all
But the water of the WORD repels
Nothing can stay where LOVE has cleansed
The heart from systems once held

....as truth


Written by Trudy Schrader on 03/12/2020

REBIRTH

I waited for you
In the depths of the earth
For the season of joy
To bring me into the womb of rebirth

So much time trickled
As blood blotted the ground
War and sorrow reigned
Where mercy had been bound

The thick ooze camped
On the connections of life
Surging energies shot forth
In eras of worldwide strife

Weapons changed hands
But the fight, always the same
Humans trying to possess
The power of NAME

.....ignorance prevailed

Then, light began to break forth
As my essence began to rise
The closer I got to the top
The ooze tried to stick me with lies

But in the core of my soul
The ETERNAL drew me near
Past all times that gathered 
As a net, drenched in humanity's worst fears

Come forth, my daughter!
I heard you call, MY LOVE
When I awoke, I found a form
Lying on the ground, in my own blood
.......ABOVE.....ABOVE.....MY LOVE

No one could have prepared me 
For the journey, within the heart of man
Your precious NAME, a stamp
On the fruition of  a meticulous plan

......to BE GOD

How is it possible, six days
And still humanity is without a clue
That you were dead before life had breath
And all that is LOVE is YOU

YOU, all perfect, all knowing
The essence of beauty revealed
In the simple cycle of growth
The treasures of Heaven are concealed

I have been above, my allotted time
Territory has been consecrated to LOVE
The fire is on its way
To bring forth the TRUTH of
........difference

Lies told humanity
Difference means you are less
A Holy God wants to rule
You are "good," but....HE IS ALWAYS BEST
.....there is no rest!!!!!!

The day is upon us
Where all of humanity will bow
And in unison CONFESS
You alone, oh GOD
Is, was, and will always be BEST
.....and your heart is to know

...................................me!?!


Written by Trudy Schrader on 03/11/2020

BACK AGAIN

I couldn't pinpoint the moment
When my movement changed
The current continued onward
So how could I know, underneath,
  ......my waters rearranged

As time carried on, and I along
Bubbles rose to the top, bursting
The still, calm, peace, gone
How could the River of Life
.....become so thirsty

I wanted to go South, but no
You drew me straight into your North
West and East not even considered
Where the rushing of tides
....working to bring LOVE forth

............into the glorious light of never ending day


I have desires, I want...something
I play it out like a genius playing chess
The movements and choices made by eternity
Who am I to make a willful play
....a fool bouncing out a well informed...guess

I once did all I wanted, secretly
Knowing that none wanted me to prosper
I found safety in you, releasing my flow
And at the exact moment I saw a form
......I lost HER

The woman you made me to be
Is flowing in you, finally free
Yet unison seems far from shores
When I pull back, again, to hold my moors
......securely in time, rushing toward eternity

Written by Trudy Schrader on 03/10/2020