INDOCTRINATED

I was doctored
Before I was sick
Getting ahead of disease
Is the trick
...to being

I was wrong
Before I was right
Placed in between
Evil and light
...to struggle

I was cursed
Before I was blessed
Redemption needed
To enter rest
...as a baby

I was rescued 
Before I was bound
Pleasures denied
Just as they were found
...in hope

Punishment a promise
Before reward was offered
All I could ever desire
Sacrificed on an altar
...of an AWFUL god

TRUTH appeared............

                 Now, WHAT?????

Written by Trudy Schrader on 07/26/2020


Note: Growing up in any society, we are taught WHAT to believe rather than how to think and how to process information. I think about Jim Jones, David Koresh and others who were obviously, mentally ill, but so were their followers, so easily indoctrinated. Why is it so easy for us to swallow, hook, line and sinker, belief systems based in punishment and reward rather than the TRUTH...God means to enjoy us? May we all come to know Daddy God as LOVE, because that is His name.

RENTING THE VEIL

Covered in shadow
White to light
She is married
To the night

...yet she claims

I am owner
I am might
I have won
It's my right

...to rule man

Androgynous
When at war
A goddess
No more

...to appease appetite

Kings and Queens
Bound to glory
They honor and venerate
Her ancient story

...empty womb

Written by Trudy Schrader on 07/26/2020

BEREAVEMENT

Moments come and go
With the unpredictable flow
Of love
Joy, Sorrow, discovery, relief
Gain, loss, growth, and grief
....but this....

I can see you standing, there
Right there, in plain sight
My love flowing toward you
In truth and rainbow light

....BAM!

The backlash hit me full force
As your black voice
....spoke

Lies, you are in agreement with lies
Against the very one who willing dies
....daily, so you can live????

I can't fix it, so I walk away
I will not cry, I will pray

Daddy God says I have entered
Bereavement
Housed in the backwoods
Where there is no easement
....to stay connected

Enough, my LORD...I have lost enough

Then light shines on the years 
I wanted to know nothing of Mama God
Experiences, lies, disappointment
Led me to believe the Holy Spirit was a fraud

Even after she breathed on me
And allowed me a taste of peace
I walked away without even a thanks
For one moment of release 
....from constant torment

Twenty four years of healing and comfort
She was there in my loneliest hour
But I wanted nothing to do with the part of God
Who was responsible for the....POWER
....to destroy

It was only a little while back
That I finally saw her TRUTH, me in her hands
As she looked upon her creation
I began to understand
....she is LOVE
...............too

LOVE always believes, always hopes...............LOVE never fails

I will too

Written by Trudy Schrader on 07/14/2020