PULLING UP ROOTS

     This is going to be short, sweet, and to the point. The Holy Spirit gave me this more than a year ago. I have not been allowed to share it publicly until now. That's always encouraging to me, because it means that Love is on the move, always growing fruit. God's Word is Truth and Life. Honestly, I had no idea that this key was there all along. I pray that you invite the Holy Spirit to point to roots of fear, have the courage to ask the question, receive Truth, and find freedom from anything covering up the color of Love in your life. For me, when I saw my root, it was so obvious why I worked so hard to keep busy, never slowing down, never being able to "enjoy" living. The freedom is worth the hell I went through to find my Pearl of Great Price.

LOVE WITHOUT FEAR (1 Corinthians 13:4-8)


LOVE IS                                           FEAR IS                               FRUIT 

Patient                                               Not Lovable                        Busy/Unavailable
Kind                                                  My Love is Evil                  Destruction
Does Not Envy                                 Entitlement                          Ambitious
Does Not Boast                                Ignored                                Glory
Is Not Proud                                     No Nurturing                       Self Reliance
Is Not Rude                                      Lack                                     Stealing
Is Not Self Seeking                          Empty Well                          Hording
Not Easily Angered                         Not Understood                    Rage
Keeps No Record of Wrongs           Forgotten                              Unforgiveness
Doesn't Delight in Evil                     No Justice                             Retribution/Vengeance
Rejoices in Truth                              Perspective is god                 Bondage
Always Protects                                Betrayal                                Bitterness
Always Trusts                                   No Anchor                            Isolation
Always Hopes                                  The Abyss/Unknown            Depression
Always Perseveres                            Failure                                  Suicide
Never Fails                                        Doubt                                   Unbelief

     Sorry about my columns being wonky. I'm no expert at computer stuff. Just so you know, the list doesn't make any sense. There's a reason for that. Those who are seeking Truth, the fruit will hit you in the head, then go backwards. Once the Holy Spirit reveals the lie that created the belief, you will see how it is in opposition to the Love that is already in your heart, blocking the Light of that Truth from shining out. For me, my fruit was busy, not present, unavailable. I lived as a functioning individual, but I couldn't be relational. So, my fear was, "I'm not lovable." Patience did not come until I found that Jesus had time for my journey. I was not a "function" in His Body. I'm someone He longs to know. That's not something you can be told. It is something you have to experience. Only intimacy can bring you to Truth...which is being naked, flaws and all, without shame. Oh, and you can have more than one. I had them all, and nearly came to unbelief during depression and suicidal ideations. Praise God, Love never fails. He brought me through. Never give up Hope.