If the facts were plain
Lain on a sheet of white
It would still be fuzzy
With all the was he, was she...right
So, he led and she followed
Habit, to the place of secrets
Knowing he wouldn't talk
And she was certain to keep it
....hidden
........................deep
....................................where, even she, couldn't go
He didn't need a face
Only a way, that led to the place
Where familiarity played
While her growth stayed
...put....careful, to never move
Safety was found in routine
Afraid, until it was done
Then she could go free
Though her mind was broken, she would run
...like children do
It was when things got different
Even the air was terror
That she pulled against habit
Trying help him avoid an error
...in behavior
.......just trying somethin' new
.......................like molestation had a flavor
WAIT!!!!
Choice....if this is love, doesn't love have choice!?!
......or does SHE lose.......
.................................can't go there......back, gotta get back
.............on my back
......................................I think it's over........
"When you get over
Maybe you can GIVE back!"
She arose and died
As the forever bond, lied
Until LOVE came and untied
The veil of the virgin bride.
Written by Trudy Schrader on 10/29/2019
Tuesday, October 29, 2019
Sunday, October 20, 2019
DOOR JAM
LOVE has a rhythm
That beats the heart with dance
The skin yields to flow
As the feet leap into chance
Feelings are fleeting
The mind can't be trusted
Useless connections pull
Wanting to be dusted
Windows threaten to open
Doors swing wide
As a tantalizing voice
Tries to pull you inside
....but LOVE
Lord O' Mercy, such a mess
Tangled and gnarled mesh
Human touch tightens
As it endeavors to enlighten
...a way out
Tie a ribbon around the eyes
Put plugs in your ears
Never again, startle
At the various sounds you THINK you hear
Place gloves on your hands
Put soda on the tongue
Dull the passions
That ignited when you were young
Draw self into the moment
Yield your heart to LOVE
Spirit, alone, will lead
Without pull, longings, pushes, or shoves
...into melody
Bound, gagged, limp, and deaf
You will move with purpose and ease
Who rules the Kingdom of LOVE
But the one who has been given the keys
Enter into peace, little ones
Dance to the beat of your own drum
Knowing that every wonky step, is yours
HIS STORY is already done
....and LOVE has won!
Written by Trudy Schrader on 10/20/2019
That beats the heart with dance
The skin yields to flow
As the feet leap into chance
Feelings are fleeting
The mind can't be trusted
Useless connections pull
Wanting to be dusted
Windows threaten to open
Doors swing wide
As a tantalizing voice
Tries to pull you inside
....but LOVE
Lord O' Mercy, such a mess
Tangled and gnarled mesh
Human touch tightens
As it endeavors to enlighten
...a way out
Tie a ribbon around the eyes
Put plugs in your ears
Never again, startle
At the various sounds you THINK you hear
Place gloves on your hands
Put soda on the tongue
Dull the passions
That ignited when you were young
Draw self into the moment
Yield your heart to LOVE
Spirit, alone, will lead
Without pull, longings, pushes, or shoves
...into melody
Bound, gagged, limp, and deaf
You will move with purpose and ease
Who rules the Kingdom of LOVE
But the one who has been given the keys
Enter into peace, little ones
Dance to the beat of your own drum
Knowing that every wonky step, is yours
HIS STORY is already done
....and LOVE has won!
Written by Trudy Schrader on 10/20/2019
Saturday, October 5, 2019
SHATTERED LENS
I was walking along the path
With full eyesight in tact
Discovering nouns and verbs
Conjoined as presented fact
Things were fine, til they weren't
And I began to question
If there were common laws
A weary soul could rest in
The more I wondered, I wandered
Hither and yon, searching for....what!?!
I'm certain I appeared whackadoodle
Throwing out ideas and systems that just could NOT
....answer
Through all the sifting and mixing
I baked myself a right good mess
Then I threw out my heart's desire
"Where can a spiritual heart enter a natural rest?"
LOVE came to me in the form of man
And gave me His hand to take
I hesitated with terror
"What if I follow and you find 'I' am a mistake?"
He entreated me to move in trust
Allowing all things to work out in process
The more He revealed about LOVE and life
The more I was left to guess
...through shattered lens
Did I see what I think I saw
Was what I saw based in preconceived notion
Shall I run along the laid out track
Or leave all habit for unwavering devotion
Something about habit that is appealing
At least one can feel safe....for a while
But once TRUTH is revealed, in the open
You can accept, or enter "duh nile"
Though images pass, and insecurities emerge
Through shards of broken glass
I am learning to look for movement, only
Never reaching to hold in a stolen grasp
...an eternal GOD
Written by Trudy Schrader on 10/05/2019
With full eyesight in tact
Discovering nouns and verbs
Conjoined as presented fact
Things were fine, til they weren't
And I began to question
If there were common laws
A weary soul could rest in
The more I wondered, I wandered
Hither and yon, searching for....what!?!
I'm certain I appeared whackadoodle
Throwing out ideas and systems that just could NOT
....answer
Through all the sifting and mixing
I baked myself a right good mess
Then I threw out my heart's desire
"Where can a spiritual heart enter a natural rest?"
LOVE came to me in the form of man
And gave me His hand to take
I hesitated with terror
"What if I follow and you find 'I' am a mistake?"
He entreated me to move in trust
Allowing all things to work out in process
The more He revealed about LOVE and life
The more I was left to guess
...through shattered lens
Did I see what I think I saw
Was what I saw based in preconceived notion
Shall I run along the laid out track
Or leave all habit for unwavering devotion
Something about habit that is appealing
At least one can feel safe....for a while
But once TRUTH is revealed, in the open
You can accept, or enter "duh nile"
Though images pass, and insecurities emerge
Through shards of broken glass
I am learning to look for movement, only
Never reaching to hold in a stolen grasp
...an eternal GOD
Written by Trudy Schrader on 10/05/2019
WHEN
When I first beheld my creation
And held you in my arms
I determined I would obliterate
Anything that would try to bring you harm
When I suckled you at my breast
Offering all my love without restraint
I determined I would work to provide
Every need, and your wants without complaint
When you grew your legs with great strength
And I let you go, to run and play
I determined to only guide from the sidelines
And never get in the way
......of growth
When your mind produced thoughts
And I drew in my breath in awe of your beauty
I determined to never lie for vanity's sake
But share hope in truth, the heart of a parent's duty
When I saw you develop in ways
That I could not relate, I kept open the gate
And, I determined that understanding is a bonus
That disequilibrium can never negate
When I saw that you spent less and less time
Wanting, or even enduring my presence
I determined that I would give you space
And not add sugar that puffs up and leavens
....my bread of sorrow
When you looked into my eyes
And saw the power I couldn't see myself
I determined to love you silly
And put the unpleasant experience on a shelf
When I tried to address and disarm your fears
You shooed me away with push of your hand
I determined to let you go your way
And accept that I don't need to understand
When I saw you take courage and dare to express
Self, in a way that was creative and bold
I determined to rejoice in silence
And accept that my meager mite created gold
....when......
Written by Trudy Schrader on 10/05/2019
And held you in my arms
I determined I would obliterate
Anything that would try to bring you harm
When I suckled you at my breast
Offering all my love without restraint
I determined I would work to provide
Every need, and your wants without complaint
When you grew your legs with great strength
And I let you go, to run and play
I determined to only guide from the sidelines
And never get in the way
......of growth
When your mind produced thoughts
And I drew in my breath in awe of your beauty
I determined to never lie for vanity's sake
But share hope in truth, the heart of a parent's duty
When I saw you develop in ways
That I could not relate, I kept open the gate
And, I determined that understanding is a bonus
That disequilibrium can never negate
When I saw that you spent less and less time
Wanting, or even enduring my presence
I determined that I would give you space
And not add sugar that puffs up and leavens
....my bread of sorrow
When you looked into my eyes
And saw the power I couldn't see myself
I determined to love you silly
And put the unpleasant experience on a shelf
When I tried to address and disarm your fears
You shooed me away with push of your hand
I determined to let you go your way
And accept that I don't need to understand
When I saw you take courage and dare to express
Self, in a way that was creative and bold
I determined to rejoice in silence
And accept that my meager mite created gold
....when......
Written by Trudy Schrader on 10/05/2019
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