FAILING FEELINGS

There is a deep sadness

Lingering like an unpleasant odor

Nothing a little Lysol can't cover

...yet, it continues to hover

.............over my soul

BUT, I'M WHOLE!!!

RESTORED!

Not again...being human is

Undesirable

I can no longer find a purpose

When I had children

My heart was full

My soul overrun with joy

They are gone

My need has run its course

I am no more than

An unpleasant odor

Needing to be dealt with

Written by Trudy Schrader on 05/26/2021

CULTURE REQUIREMENTS

Out into the wilderness, he ran

Escaping the punishment of the only GOD he'd ever known

Wandering, wondering, fighting

....something...for pity's sake...WHAT!?!

.......no

WHO

What he found was a burning bush

That would not be consumed

The closer he got

The more he assumed

.....a right to understand

After all, he was so close to being

GOD

Murder...no, that wasn't murder

It was justice...I had the authority...the right

To take a life......that was cruel, unjust

Stupid....hebrew

I can't be one of them....I am...G....

The bush spoke, and revoked any right

To be anything other than who he was made to be

A leader, drenched in culture, and, a murderer

The humbling took 40 years

....even then, murder showed up again

I am the leader, and GOD, the only GOD said so

To prove it, HE will kill for me...then, HE's the feared one

....the bad one, the one in need of LOVE

.........not me, after all, HE made me.....I think.....sort of

Oh I don't know...just shut up....and follow me

Fast forward

The SAVIOR, REDEEMER of mankind

Hangs upon a wooden cross

Bearing, wearing the weight of prophecies

Required by fear's culture

Man must be exalted, while GOD must be humiliated

Man must have the authority to exact punishment

.....while GOD must have the strength to bear it all

...................oh, the great price

..............................................required by humanity

HE paid it all!!!

Written by Trudy Schrader on 05/12/2021

THE PRICE

While I was becoming normal

You were becoming you

While I was enjoying your process

You were running free in the presence of blue

While I was getting free from fear

Love surrounded you like wind

While I knew I was changing

You leaped in joy where my sorrow had been

While I spoke of spiritual concepts anew

You walked, naturally, away from me

While I believed you liked my presence

You were strolling, every moment, anticipating to be free

.......tolerated

The process of shedding the fake

Becoming authentic in word and in deed

Has cost me the pleasure of being enjoyed

In exchange for the opportunity to plant seed

I will not get to see the fruit

My LOVE protects me from pride

No one will celebrate me, in this life

In Eternal White Light, is where I hide

I will not give way to sorrow and grief

For how my life could have ran in different ways

Instead, I will rejoice for every moment

I got to spend with my LOVE in all of my appointed days

Written by Trudy Schrader on 05/11/2021

Note: Blue means love. 

LOVE UNDER THE INFLUENCE

 All she wanted was his time

Focused attention, if you please

But he took what was his

Til she was on her knees

...begging

He was in awe of her beauty

She utilized his wealth

He gave her all she desired

But he could not pay for her health

...she dragged him under

They saw her light, shining

Far brighter than ever seen

They gave her basic needs

While they gathered at her spleen

...under her radar

Millions lie before him

Hunger for a word of hope

In the midst of their debilitating despair

He throws out a frayed rope

...luring the eye down

Violence is such an ugly word

A reality for those who try to love

Killing, Stealing, and Destroying

The connection for those rising above

...the urchens

Utilizing others for personal gain

May seem like an acceptable function

But for Children of LIGHT

Pure flow under the UNCTION

....of Mama God

....................delivers the afflicted

......................................heals those under contract

.......................................................restores the soul to the SPIRIT

...............................................With no thought............for.................self.

Written by Trudy Schrader on 05/08/2021

  

Note: Love does not demand its own way (1 Corinthians 13:5)